Pretty bow

I have so many pending drafts and I've yet to complete even one. Each time I wanted to complete it, halfway through the journey, I lost the momentum somewhere in Facebook. I've been up to so many things the last time I blogged & I pretty much enjoying it even though deep down inside, I'm praying for some miracle. Hopefully.

That aside, for the past few days I've learnt more about responsibility (though I'm not trying hard to practice it!), the values of friendship and relationship, of course. Let's just put it this way, I'm happy and contented for whatever that is bestowed on me. I don't harbour any hatred and I don't harp on just one minute of reluctancy in one soul. (I focused too much on your kindness that I almost forgot how cunning can you be!) Still, God bless everyone <3

Before I put on my mask, paint my nails and read my "Shopaholic Abroad" novel which I'm good at procrastinating sometimes & that makes me still at page 17 after 2 weeks, here I am trying to type word by word and save this post for the first time, NOT as a draft. (I make a good procrastinator!).

Its very overdue but for the past 18 days, I've been trying to jot down my resolution for 2010 excluding to lose 5 kilos because it has been in my resolution for years!

1) Lose 5 kilos, what's new? But seriously, I need to lose the excess do or die! (I must threaten myself if not, I will procrastinate AGAIN)

2) Punctual to school, do not attempt to skip/miss any lesson. I'm left with 3 weeks more! As I'm typing 3 weeks more, I'm feeling the heat and my heart is beating like hell. Guilty is charged.

3) Get over with PP assesment by this Friday. Yes, I missed my assesment due to unforseen circumstances. But that's 2009 where I'm still oblivious about my priorities. Not that I'm fully aware of it now, but more or less I WAS BEING GIVEN A WAKE UP CALL.

4) FYP! Concentrate hard on FYP. This time round, I can't fail. If not, I'm a complete idiot. Hahaha.

5) Take GOOD extra care of my health and my whole body cos starting from yesterday, I started to love myself more than everyone and everything.

6) I can't trade any of the good habits in this world for SHOPPING. Cos I really need retail therapy at times especially when I'm at my lowest peak.

7) Have at least a license in my hands, please. Lady luck, show up please.

8) Spend more time at borders and have MORE books so long as it keeps me occupied!

9) Save at least $10 or $5 each day. Wait. I see a good effect in this. If I can save up means, I'm cutting down on my food intake :)

10) Spend more time with my grandmas, my small kiddos, cousins and Mum.

So that's 10 and I have more time. Sometimes, I just wish that I have 48 hours a day! It's 0019 and I need to do some things before I call it a night.

Wait.

Lauren Conrad has legs to kill!

Good night netlings <3

I'm in the state of confusion, SOS!

p/s : I've lost one, I think its the end.

Since facebook is lagging, I shall update this junk again. Its been so long since I've updated this blog. I seriously thinkthat facebook is stealing all my time away, tsk. Anyhow, here's an update for Poji's 25th bird-day. So tua already my brother!

So I was very sick that day and had to take 3 days of MC. All due to the change of weather in Genting to Singapore I think?Cos from what I heard, many fell sick too and one was even suspected of H1N1. That bad.

But thankfully, I'm much better now even though I did NOT take the medicines as told by doctor and I simply spit it away when mum not looking.But when I was ill, it was hell. I can barely wake up and bathe.My stomach were unable to take in food. It was really hell and I kept waking up every hour pespiring. I do like to be sick sometimes but at times, it is just hell. Lols. Enough of my drama.

I'm better now and I cant wait for the trip to KL = SHOPPING!

This was when we decided to kill the time at the side of PM. I'm actually waiting for my fever to subside but to no avail.

But it did, the very next day!

Yes. Its crude I know. And who told me to pose like this? The photographer himself.

We reached Amirah's grill. Oh I didnt mention it didnt I? We booked a room at Amirah's grill. I think, its worth the money! The rental is free and there's DVD player too! Warm and cosy, me like.

Abg kite da ORD-OH.

Birthday boy's meal. And yes, the food is marvellouseeeeeeeyyy.

Muscles tk boleh angkat eh. Stop it eh.

What's a birthday without being sabotage? Hahahahahahahahahahahahaha. That is for you!

..... And this one too! Abg da ORD kan.

For a moment, his world seems dark. Lol.

I just had a dip in the pool with Ayah Wan & Sitikus. And will be going again later with Dee & bf!

Double date like that. Heh heh. I'll update the Genting trip in just a bit, AS IF. We'll see how my mood.

And Ma just bought me an iPhone.

Its my new toy now. Love you Bitsy.

A short getaway is what I need right now.

:)

See you on Mondayyy!

p/s: hopefully no vomittings when taking the rides.

I eat like this in public, nak date I tak? Hoho.

;)

Do you feel like running away? I'm sure most of you who have tonnes on your shoulder would want to. But think again, there's no use escaping it. It will still come back to you.

So much of missing in this blog. Oh btw, I'm halfway through my unpublished post when onsugar kept on saying I failed to upload the photos and that left me creating this new post. Smell the new in it babiessss. Hehhh. I think that most of my readers (or do I have none?) prolly gone with the wind too cos I DONT usually update about my life and shits here. More on FB I supposed till I was labelled, FB addict. Mane tak, bangun tidur FB, berak FB, makan FB keluar pun mesti FB! Heh Heh. Gone case already but what to do! I is got no life. Tsk.

Sooooooooooo. My life has been ah-okay for the record. There's good and there's bad. But all I'm saying is that things are getting better at home *cross fingers* but things hasnt been good in my love-life. I do not want to spoil this entry into a some emo entry yet again macam org mati like that but its okay. I'm allllllllll for goood! I think being apathetic is the key to refrain from shedding a tear, no?

My PP assesment will be on the 5th which is this Saturday and guess what! I've not even done a single thing! Everybody clap2 hand meh! But there's a story behind it all ok. Not on purpose so excuse me for that. Plans changed for the last minute, thanks RP! and there goes my entire brain and negative thinking functioning spreading hilarious and negative thoughts all over me sampaikan jiwe I tersekse. Drama again.

But its okay. I shall see the light sooner or later! What doesn't kill me, makes me stronger.

Note to self : Fucking move on and be strong bitch!

Now I is need to sleep cos I is got lesson at 0915 hours later or later I is kena -0.5 and in the end I dapat telur busuk grade! Then I is sad more :((

Nights my world!

Minutes, seconds has past and I've yet to shut these eyes. Its 0303 hours in the wee morning and I'm wide awake, on my bed. Since its getting late each minute, I'll try my best not to sleep cos I won't get up to school tmr if I do.

So much of spending too much time on facebook and leisure, I think I'm not going to make it anywhere if this continues (ah choy!).

But the past few moments I was away, I'm glad that I'd spent my time with close friends, best friends & family! Not to forget, Asslove.

And oh, I forgot to make it official that I'm thankful to God that we've reached a year. Praises to Allah.

365 days together has taught me alot. He's the first man who brought joy to my life every single day without fail. Whatever I'm saying here, its true. Its the fact and not just some fairy god knows what tales! That aside, I've never been so angry and happy with a person at the same time. Now he's the first.

A year is never enough for you to know somebody so well, inside out. I second that for sure that I didn't even know you inside out till now. 365 days of sorrow and  happiness.

Guessed the dark clouds are only passing by.

I love you sayang no matter how or what happens, I will stay by your side.

I promise.

I'm lack of words. I think I spent too much time on Facebook rather than my online journal. I'm sorry if I've neglected you. But, I will make it up sooon!

The sun shine on me finally.

Make it long. I dont want to be stuck in the dark alley again cos it hurts so much. Nevertheless, I'm gonna pray for the best ; for the best has yet to come.

Although, it has not been resolved, I decided to take a different route to happiness. Leave it to the Almighty. For He knows what's best for us, humans.

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p/s : I may have sinned. I admit it. Unlike someone like you babe who goes around pretending to be someone so pure when actually you're not. Stop being delusional and start facing the reality. Now, which part of me is an embarrasment to you? Because I felt that, you're more of an embarrasment to me.

Ok, now go spread stories again. I'm waiting for another piece of news.

And please, stop taking people's ideas and acknowledge it as your own! Its not good you know! Later the public will call you, copycatttttt.

(:

Love, AlbaMiller

Why the emo(shit) entries for the past few days? Simple. I'm at my lowest peak.

But I concluded, this is just a test from the Almighty. It can be worst. But its a lesson to be learn. I know I'm not at fault, I may have sins and I've made mistakes but who the hell doesnt right? Tell me youre someone pure, tell me youre one "wanita solehah" and I'll point out on where you've gone wrong about that!

That aside, I'm thinking whether for all these years, you've been true to yourself and your pride. I dont wanna speak bad about you but I dont know where or who to turn to. 

You've succeeded in making me invisible and now you know how much pain, pressure you've brought to me, you cant face me at all.

Only one thing I can do now, keep hoping and praying.

I'm off to be doing what I'm supposed to do for the past 12 years of living. Good night and may tmr be a brand new day, a beautiful one perharps!

Insya'Allah.